But since I came here / felt the joy and the fear / find myself making every possible mistake

I've done it.
I've faced my fear (well, one of many).

I will be waking up extra early tomorrow to print out my application, resume, and work sample and mail it off to one job announcement (before heading into a Critical Race Studies symposium) and I've just emailed off another cover letter and resume to another job announcement.

If you don't know, this process has been absolutely frightening. Something about having to actually advocate for myself and overcome my weird lack-of-self-confidence... it's tough. I'm constantly on the phone with friends (or pestering my roommate) to keep me on track and not let myself fall into that rabbit hole (you know, where you keep falling... and falling... only to come out a little dusty, chasing after a white rabbit that represents your hopes and future... dramatic enough for you?).


But I did it!
and you know what? YES I CAN (get a job)!

//

And for the wonky ones:
a map